New Moon in Leo, Solar Eclipse 11/08/2018 – Out of the shadow and into the light.

Happy New Moon day,

it is a solar eclipse in the Astrological sign of Leo.  Leo’s are fabulous in their expression, they can be the fun and life and soul of the party, they are exuberant, flamboyant, gregarious and full of energy, on the plus side.  On the negative side they can be seen as arrogant and full of their own glory.  But in truth, isn’t that something that we are all capable of?

Many aspects of an individual’s astrological sign can be viewed in their positive or their negative, quite often, human nature tends to err on the side of the negative.  Sadly, but we need both aspects as part of our persona to exist and to encourage us of exactly where we need to strive and grow and work on, in our shadow aspects of our persona.

Today’s new moon is about addressing what comes up from our shadow selves, being aware of what is showing up and being present, working on this, this can be in terms of emotions, situations, circumstances or events.  It is super potent right now because we also have 5 planets in retrograde, so it is a super charged time.  Many emotions are coming up from people’s shadow selves.  Human nature has a tendency to deny its existence because it feels downright uncomfortable to imagine for one moment that one could feel some of the dark shadow aspects of ones soul, but these arise for a reason.

Quite often they are unhealed parts of ourselves that are being illuminated as a means of addressing aspects of our healing that need to be healed.  If you are a person who is becoming aware of your existence on a deeper level, you will understand.  If you are a person who isn’t on that level of understanding yet, it may feel alien and uncomfortable.

Today’s call is to address what is being revealed from the deeper aspects of your subconscious soul and shadow self.  Not always easy, not always comfortable, but think about it, do we grow when we are cosy, comfortable and complacent? NO, we don’t we grow when we are forced into a corner or suddenly we do not feel we have a choice.

Ask your Spirit Guides and Angels to help you illuminate and bring to light what is sitting within your subconscious soul as a means of moving forward and bringing this up and turning it into light.  There are so many things that you can do to channel any deep and negative emotions, sport, drawing, painting, singing, dancing, poetry, writing, blogging, sharing your truth with others, ( you never know who you will inspire).

Try not to resist the feelings, emotions associated, you don’t need to fix them, you don’t need to act on them, just become aware and be present in them, note them down and allow your soul and spirit to transform them through your intuitive guidance.

Don’t forget to allow yourself to set your intent of what it is that you desire to create in this new moon.  New Moon time is a time to set your intent for your next chapter prior to the next full moon, ask for what it is that your soul truly desires, and then believe that you are worthy to receive it, and if you are in alignment with your souls growth and the universe then all will be revealed.

Have a wonderful time manifesting your growth for your next chapter.

In love & light, Susan xxxx

Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching ©

 

Divine message 07/08/2018 – Energy, everything is energy.

Good Morning, Good Morning, Good Morning,

Happy Tuesday, may your day be just fabulous where it counts and where it feels awesome.

Today’s divine message is that of “Energy” we are all energy and everything is energy, even money is energy.  Some of us are natural healers and can use our energy in a constructive, loving and compassionate way to heal.  We are energy and that we are all connected in some way or other.

It states that Life can be electrifying because its very essence is energy, even with the Ups and the Downs, the trials, tribulations, joys etc.

Receiving Healing may be a good time right now, such as a Massage, some Reiki, some healing work as you will respond accordingly to such and it can support your body to get in alignment if you have been feeling out of sorts, as such.

Also take note of your own capacity to heal yourself and others, have you noticed? Has anyone ever said to you your hands are really hot, or you have the capacity to make me feel better? on a consistent basis, have a think?

Wishing all a beautifully blessed Tuesday in its unfolding and may it be a day that counts and feels that it has made a difference in some way.

With love & light, Susan xxx

Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching ©

 

Energy photo (credit) Hal Gatewood)

An Interdependent Relationship is the healthiest way v co-dependency, learning the art of detachment in relationships.

Relationships, the most sought after thing, yet for many, including myself can feel illusive, why is that, well here is my learning, until we get healthy with ourselves and weed out negative behaviour patterns and negative conditioning, we simply cannot be healthy with another, this is not to say for one moment, that one ought to take full responsibility for the demise of a relationship in its totality, but an understanding of how you played a part in that demise and what part you played.

You simply cannot expect to make another accountable if they choose not to be aware, or simply acknowledge in communication with you, their part, or even validate any hurt their actions may have fostered.

You see pain, in particular in relationships, I believe are one of our greatest Teachers, and greatest assets to be able to force us to grow and come out of our conditioned comfort zone.

Many will say how the hell can you give advice on relationships when you are not in one? well here is the thing, if you are a person who does reflect and does look in the mirror you can glean a lot from what hasn’t worked, what things you have done, what things you haven’t done and you can take this lessons forward, there is no greater lesson than that what is deemed as failure both from your own inner critic and from an observational view of the lens.

I have come to learn that the reason why the very thing that you may truly desire from your soul and heart eludes you, is because perhaps you have been eluding yourself? quite often the focus on “other” is a mechanism to deflect you from looking at yourself, it is easy to get into a situation whereby it’s always the other persons fault, but that is just proportioning blame, which serves no purpose, that is just a justification to take no responsibility for being part of that journey.

You see my learning is that when you love deeply there can be acts of imbalance in that you give all of yourself, sometimes at times at the expense of “other” when in actual fact, the gift is to learn interdependence, keep a level of individuality and a level of interdependence in equal measure.  Having been part of unhealthy relationships, I now get to witness so much earlier on, the red flags of where a situation could become co-dependent, that is not love, that is enabling, that is control, and love is not about control.

Love needs to be given a space to be free, to flourish, to grow, to emerge in its floral design, so that both emerge and grow to their highest and greatest potential.  One of the healthiest relationships is where honest, truthful and connected, present communication exists, where there is absolutely no fear or judgement in being able to express your true, honest and authentic self.

The gift of loving unconditionally without expectation is the gift of detachment, for when you get to a place where there is no expectation of an outcome, there is no need, nor desire to “fix” other, but to focus on fixing, YOU, that is the gift of a healthy relationship.

In today’s society there are a great deal of unhealthy relationships, I know this from a wisdom perspective, and knowledge as being part of a group, observation and reading.

Unhealthy relationship patterns can be learnt from an early age, even from the perspective of what appears on the outside, a very healthy relationship to co-dependency and enabling patterns that take place in the home.

When you can get to a place where you can safely allow your souls true authentic self to shine, express itself without fear or judgement, and the same for other, then that right there is a healthy balance.

Love is not control, loves needs space to be able to express its truth, not all flowers and rose tinted glasses all of the time, but the moments of emotions that may not feel very comfortable, when you get to a place where you can connect with someone and you show all facets of your character and personality and there is nothing hidden, and both of you are able to hold each other in those moments by being emotionally present and available, that is a healthy relationship.

If you feel the need to “fix” make excuses, dum down who you are, or suppress your emotions or who you are that is control, that isn’t healthy.  The importance of honest communication is also about allowing yourself to vocalise your feelings without fear this helps the relationship grow because you are showing your vulnerability, and it is only when we truly drop our guard, show our vulnerability that we can truly have an honest loving relationship and remember, just because you behave in a particular way, it does not mean expecting other to be the same, because that right there is one of the situations that will set you up for a fall.  Most of us do have an expectation of how we perceive things should be, but in the love stakes, usually it turns out to be completely different, that is because we had an expectation.

Love is a gift when it is allowed to grow and flow.

In love & light, Susan. xxx

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Another cycle ends – transformation and connecting with my feelings associated.

#It’s an inside journey#

It seems lately there is less time to write as much as I used to be able too.  I find myself feeling emotional today, as I am coming to an end of another cycle, what is it about endings that evoke so much emotion, even knowing that every ending is going to open a new doorway.  An example I can think of, is this, ending a relationship that is negative, dysfunctional and has evoked negative emotions associated, one would imagine that one would feel “Happy” and yet the feelings that arise, are feelings of loss, and then there is the cycle of emotions that give rise to grieving.  This is an example to understand.

I say goodbye this week to a role that has come to completion for 2 years, it has been an experience of both positive and negative, positive because of the connections made, the laughter, the giggles, connecting with new people, being able to be a listening ear to those that have needed it, even being a listening ear to those who have projected their anger, because of the space that they were in at the time.  The negative the demands on the physical and emotional body.  I feel it is now time to close that door and say “Goodbye and “Thank you” for the journey, the experience, the highs and the lows.  But isn’t it amazing how closing doors, brings you closer to your emotions of loss, from previous doors that you have closed, or in some cases, closed because you had no choice, because closure may not have been completely possible.

I have just finished today, my 2nd job for the week, this will end next month, it is time for a new chapter, new beginnings, and even knowing that this will usher in new growth, I cannot help but feel a tinge of emotions, like awww, it feels a little sad, it has reminded me of other losses.  You see my viewpoint is this, that in this life, this fast paced western world we are so very busy pressing on, not giving ourselves time to process our emotions, our feelings associated with whatever we may be experiencing that we can if not careful walk around like we are “dead” emotionless, unfeeling, detached from our inner core emotions, and that in my mind is not good for the Mind, Body nor the Spirit.

I understand for many a feeling person who is in touch with their emotions, can feel too intense for many who choose to lock their emotions away, detach from them, store them in a box, never to open Pandora’s box until “Spirit” or the “Universe” decide to give you a situation or scenario, whereby you have to revisit, can you imagine for a moment that had you have had the courage, foresight and strength to initially allow yourself to tap into your emotions for each given situation, circumstance or event at that moment in time, what you would have been saving yourself from re-visiting later? Its true so much we would have saved ourselves if we had the courage to deal with it “NOW”

So today, I am feeling a little full of mixed emotions as I say goodbye to one chapter this month, then another chapter next month, when for the last 3 years I have been struggling with coming to terms and accepting a real big chapter and cycle in my life that was to be my biggest challenge emotionally yet, confronting, the face of what felt like “Death” “Loss” “Rejection” and feeling unworthy.

I have worked hard to claw my way back up from the very bottomless pit of the rabbit hole, and believe you me, there are moments when there is a trigger such as a loss, or a transition, that sets me back briefly, just momentarily to remembering where I have come from and where I have been.

Today, has felt a deeply moving day emotionally, the past 4 years have been hard as I have been working on my business this business and in the moments of healing, working with depression, counselling, past life regression to look at patterns that I may have been repeating, and allowing myself to be defined by how others have chosen to treat me, and what I have allowed in that process, has been deep.  So now couple with the wisdom of a mother who has raised 3 children to adulthood, who has experienced, many deaths, many failures, many rejections, many challenges, I can honestly say that as I sit back I can actually say, Susan, you really ought to be proud of yourself.

You see the greatest Teacher that we have is not Education, is not text book theories, no ideologies, not philosophies, but simply “Life experiences” and the pain associated with such.  Along with life experiences, pain is our greatest Teacher, for in this we are confronted with our weaknesses, confronted with our strengths, with our boundaries, with what we will accept and what we won’t and we are too faced with our vulnerabilities, we are stripped away of all ego facets of our soul and character and then once the unveiling takes place, we are confronted with a fresh new childlike new beginning on which to transmute all of the learning that has been gleaned from the whole journey;

I am proud to say that I am now much more accepting, comfortable with loss and transformation than I have ever been, even allowing myself to visit the emotions associated with the changes that take place.  Today I was given some feedback on my Group that I run on Facebook, and to me it was one of my most powerful messages that I have received, for believe me in the moments that I have doubted myself, in that journey of allowing myself to be defined by what I felt was a rejection of me, and a rejection of me not being good enough, I received affirmation and confirmation that the whole ethos of my Group Spiritual Reflections & Thoughts.  The Journey that it is successful and it does make a difference, and believe you me in the moments when I doubted myself, my souls call and who I was, who I am, I nearly called the whole lot in.  I tried a few times, but was told by Facebook that the page was of value to its followers and they would not let me close it, this coupled with today’s message has indicated to me that I am a powerful, strong woman who has been to hell and back and has risen.  As in the voice of Maya Angelou, I share a symbolism of who I can identify with,

Still I Rise

Maya Angelou1928 – 2014

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

From And Still I Rise by Maya Angelou. Copyright © 1978 by Maya Angelou. Reprinted by permission of Random House, Inc.

My spirit got broken, but not my essence, that can never be taken away for it sits in the well of my soul and comes to my aid in real times of need.

 

“And Still I Rise” and in doing so I have learnt so much about me, and what I am capable of.  Thank you for the lessons, that have enable to me to view them in the mirror of

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Susan Lawrence

Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching.

Time is a Healer! The Gift of Time

Every day is unique in its unfolding.
They say that time is a healer, you cannot place time on any healing that needs to take place, for it is like layers of an onion, each layer that sheds gives rise to an emergence of another layer to be healed.
The severity of the trauma or the experience will always be a unique one to each individual, I do admire those that appear to have the ability to dust themselves off, like flour on their clothes, dust, dust, then its gone, but is it really though? hmmmm I do wonder, for humans have the capacity to compartmentalize their stored experiences of hurt and pain in a tight lidded box, to be open again at ones choosing and peril, or when they are triggered and they have no choice but to look the hurt in the eye and say yes, I am ready now to deal with it. aaron-burden-622662-unsplash.jpg
In this though this only prolongs the healing that needs to take place, compounds it, one thing that we can do in this beautiful unfolding of “Life” is enjoy each day, live it, experience it, whilst we still give ourselves permission to be in this timeframe of NOW!!
Time is a healer, it isn’t finite, we cannot say I will feel better today, tomorrow, next week, next month or next year, it truly is a unique thing, the capacity to be able to still function though whilst one gives themselves time to heal what their soul as asking to be healed is the capacity to enjoy each day in its unfolding, to find the joy in each day.
I know from experience that behind every smile there are an ocean of tears, indeed though, this does not mean for one moment that there isn’t the capacity to laugh, giggle even though somehow, somewhere you may be hurting inside, for the gift of time, wisdom and experience is the blessings of being able to function and still get on and move away for just a moment from the pain.
Not forgetting though for those that struggle, sometimes the struggle is just too real, sometimes the transformation from pain to joy seems just a little to long a way for them, never judge, for how can we, when we are not walking a mile in their shoes, we may be able to understand the pain, but everyone will have their own unique strategies, coping mechanisms and ways of dealing with it, there is no right or wrong.
Remembering that as John Holt says, Time Is The Master!!
Remembering that Tears are the Liquid Emotions That The Heart Cannot Express!!
No judgement please for Time is a healer in all things.
With Light and Love, Susan xxxxx

The Circle Of Life!

Today I had a moment to reflect and feel amazed at having 3 Adult children, I feel amazed at how quickly time flies, how it goes and the memories all role into a ball ready for moments to be recalled.

I remember each of their Births like yesterday, the feelings, the joy, the sad reflective moments, the pure joy at holding my little bundle in my arms, and how proud I feel as I stand back and think, I am so very proud of you all.

The circle of life is always present and evident in every day life, in the Seasons, the Weather, things are born and things die, life can be like this with cycles and seasons too, so too can our own journey, in the cycles and situations that we experience, and it is okay, because what I have learnt over the years is this, nothing stays the same forever, everything is temporary for the period of time it needs to be that way, until the change and evolution of growth through a situation, event or circumstance.  Sometimes we place pressure on ourselves, with that inner dialogue that takes place, I should be this, I should be that by now, but everything has its time, everything has its place, and everything has its season.

For the real tragedy of life is not death, but what we allow to die inside of us while we live.

The true testimony is Rising from life’s tragedies and still standing when you feel like you have nothing left, when you are going through it, it doesn’t feel like you can see a light at the end of the tunnel, but later on, upon reflection you can feel immensely proud of yourself for discovering you had so much inner strength to get through.

Find the joy in between life’s challenges to find a balance and you can’t go wrong.

With love & light, Susan xxx

Today’s Universe Has Your Back Message 09/04/2018

Good Evening,

How has your day been today, I awoke today feeling uber sensitive, perhaps it is because I am fending off a heavy cold and have been feeling a little bit out of sorts, desperately trying to continue doing what needs to be done, ever get those moments where you just feel yucky?

Sensitive, insecurities popping up to feel heard, concerns, worries, yes I have those human thoughts too.

Today’s card has me in mind of Carl Jung’s Shadow Self and his work, I do find his work interesting and quite fascinating, its depth, its terminology and its meaning, I relate the term Shadow Self here

Shadow: Hidden or unconscious aspects of oneself which the ego has either repressed or never recognized.  I do think that in order to do any type of healing work it is essential to touch base with core aspects of our shadow self, this is not always an easy thing to do, as sometimes going back to some earlier experiences can reinforce the trauma experienced, but I do believe that in order to heal one must allow oneself to feel with guidance.

Today’s card relates to two polar opposites darkness and light, it is ironic as I am so aware of these feelings within myself today and have allowed myself to feel what I am feeling with an understanding that whatever it is that my subconscious self is trying to reveal to me, it will do so in its rightful timing.

So today I ask you what are you aware of within yourself that is rippling from your subconscious?

Today’s message is this, what is it you fear? what is it that I fear? what is feared? and how can it be transmuted through the energy of love, well I did take myself out of my comfort zone today, doing so is always a positive thing as it means one is challenging oneself, so if you do identify with something that is making you feel a little bit wobbly and you identify it as “Fear” challenge it, face it and then allow it to flow and move through you.  You got this, quite often what we fear is imagined anyway and blown up in our minds and the actual thought of it is far worse.

I am not going to say stay positive, because I do feel that is a clique, you cannot tell someone to stay positive when they are having thoughts and feelings, but you can support them to identify with what they are feeling, process it, acknowledge it, validate it and then work with a choice on how to move past it, that right there is the gift.

Stay true to your feeling self, knowing that you have the power within you to make a choice whether you allow something to define you or not.

In love & Light Susan xx

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Today’s Universe Has Your Back Message – 04/04/2018

It’s been a couple of days since posting, coming down feeling crappy with a heavy cold, batteries need recharging, sometimes it is so needed, sometimes we do need to listen to the inner call of our body, soul and our mind, oh yes, one must.

I do hope that you have all had a great Easter filled with family love, joy, peace, rest and a sense of inner reflection and calm.

Today’s guidance is “My Faith Has The Power To Turn Trauma Into Healing,  Conflict Into Growth, and Fear Into Love” oh my, I can so relate to this one today, I truly can.  Ever get those moments where you feel conflicted from past trauma, or one feels triggered? or one feels a ripple of a memory, you see deep seated soul scars are like that, deep, profound, always there, never really going anywhere, but reminding you sometimes of their presence, and you know what its okay, it really is.

So today remind yourself that if you have experienced trauma that your faith, whatever you believe, you have the power to turn your trauma into healing yourself firstly, then you can transfer this into helping others, how magnificently powerful is that?

You can equally turn your conflict into growth and stepping stones to pave the way to a brighter, stronger and confident you, knowing that you have RISEN, like a Phoenix from her/his ashes and turned your fear into LOVE, go on, you so know that you can, you just got to truly believe in yourself, despite your doubts, fears, insecurities and your past experiences for they have afforded your growth in your current now and can pave the way to new skills, new awareness for a brighter and better future, with a new sense of eyes being opened in a different way.

With love & beautiful light Susan xxx20180404_230202 (2).jpg

Today’s Universe Has Your Back Message – 30/3/2018 –

Happy Easter Weekend All,

May it be filled with Love, Joy, Peace and Blessings.

In the usual manner I drew a card for today and the card that came up was as follows:-

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The message is this that any form of Attack, Pain, Fear Judgement are separations from “Self” and these are merely signals and signs that require healing.

Ask yourself where are you holding on to Fear, Pain, Judgement, where are you attacking others? or even yourself?

We all know that inner critic voice that can sometimes give us a hard time if we let it too.  Where are you showing up with these emotions, remembering too that none of them are bad, they just are, but the truth is what you choose to do with these emotions and how you allow them to manifest.

Where do you need to be kinder to yourself? where do you need to be kinder to others? What is it that you need to let go of.  Coincidentally it is a Full Moon tomorrow, Saturday 31st March 2018 and this is a Blue Moon Rising plus a big solar shift which is actually creating a great deal of tension within everyone’s psyche’s, so hang on in there and I am positive that soon there is going to be a shift, plus we are coming out of a Mercury Retrograde at the end of this month, in the meantime, hang onto your hats for a little longer.

Have a great Easter weekend for those who celebrate, walk from a place of Love and if you aren’t feeling quite so, perhaps a little bit of inner reflection may be a good thing.

With love & light Susan xxx

Today’s Universe has your back message 19/3/2018

Good Morning all,

I requested a card this morning and the card that came up was the one shown below, you see when you allow yourself to open up your heart chakra and open your heart to give and receive love in the various forms it can happen you open yourself up to warmer connections.

It is easy to feel jaded from love’s life experiences but if you can keep holding on to the fact that YOU yourself are love and that the very essence of love is you first and foremost loving yourself enough to let go of anything that may be jading your experiences with others, there is no doubt that hurt and pain in relation to your personal experiences exist, feelings of hurt, feeling let down when things go wrong, but if you can come from a place of reminding yourself that we are all doing the best that we can, in what can feel a challenging world, also remembering that everyone expresses their emotions differently.

If you can ground yourself in the power and knowledge that the biggest emotional power and force there is, is LOVE, and that when you give yourself the power to lean towards this power of Love you are lead to a warmer brighter future.  This starts with acceptance of what you do not have the power to change, what you do have the power to change, and to realize that you do have a choice how to respond.  Just because something may not have worked out, does not make it bad, what makes it a challenge is the approach that may have taken place and how this manifested, even in that situation, scenario, both parties have a responsibility to respond in a way that they choose.

So today’s message is even when life may have given you a challenge in relation to some real emotional hurts and deep stuff, still allow yourself to believe in the power of love, lean towards this energy, and then you will be led, for it is far easier to generate energy towards this emotion and feeling rather than the lower vibration of hate.

Wishing all a beautifully blessed and positive Monday and week ahead.

In love & light, Susan xxx20180319_072237.jpg