Another cycle ends – transformation and connecting with my feelings associated.

#It’s an inside journey#

It seems lately there is less time to write as much as I used to be able too.  I find myself feeling emotional today, as I am coming to an end of another cycle, what is it about endings that evoke so much emotion, even knowing that every ending is going to open a new doorway.  An example I can think of, is this, ending a relationship that is negative, dysfunctional and has evoked negative emotions associated, one would imagine that one would feel “Happy” and yet the feelings that arise, are feelings of loss, and then there is the cycle of emotions that give rise to grieving.  This is an example to understand.

I say goodbye this week to a role that has come to completion for 2 years, it has been an experience of both positive and negative, positive because of the connections made, the laughter, the giggles, connecting with new people, being able to be a listening ear to those that have needed it, even being a listening ear to those who have projected their anger, because of the space that they were in at the time.  The negative the demands on the physical and emotional body.  I feel it is now time to close that door and say “Goodbye and “Thank you” for the journey, the experience, the highs and the lows.  But isn’t it amazing how closing doors, brings you closer to your emotions of loss, from previous doors that you have closed, or in some cases, closed because you had no choice, because closure may not have been completely possible.

I have just finished today, my 2nd job for the week, this will end next month, it is time for a new chapter, new beginnings, and even knowing that this will usher in new growth, I cannot help but feel a tinge of emotions, like awww, it feels a little sad, it has reminded me of other losses.  You see my viewpoint is this, that in this life, this fast paced western world we are so very busy pressing on, not giving ourselves time to process our emotions, our feelings associated with whatever we may be experiencing that we can if not careful walk around like we are “dead” emotionless, unfeeling, detached from our inner core emotions, and that in my mind is not good for the Mind, Body nor the Spirit.

I understand for many a feeling person who is in touch with their emotions, can feel too intense for many who choose to lock their emotions away, detach from them, store them in a box, never to open Pandora’s box until “Spirit” or the “Universe” decide to give you a situation or scenario, whereby you have to revisit, can you imagine for a moment that had you have had the courage, foresight and strength to initially allow yourself to tap into your emotions for each given situation, circumstance or event at that moment in time, what you would have been saving yourself from re-visiting later? Its true so much we would have saved ourselves if we had the courage to deal with it “NOW”

So today, I am feeling a little full of mixed emotions as I say goodbye to one chapter this month, then another chapter next month, when for the last 3 years I have been struggling with coming to terms and accepting a real big chapter and cycle in my life that was to be my biggest challenge emotionally yet, confronting, the face of what felt like “Death” “Loss” “Rejection” and feeling unworthy.

I have worked hard to claw my way back up from the very bottomless pit of the rabbit hole, and believe you me, there are moments when there is a trigger such as a loss, or a transition, that sets me back briefly, just momentarily to remembering where I have come from and where I have been.

Today, has felt a deeply moving day emotionally, the past 4 years have been hard as I have been working on my business this business and in the moments of healing, working with depression, counselling, past life regression to look at patterns that I may have been repeating, and allowing myself to be defined by how others have chosen to treat me, and what I have allowed in that process, has been deep.  So now couple with the wisdom of a mother who has raised 3 children to adulthood, who has experienced, many deaths, many failures, many rejections, many challenges, I can honestly say that as I sit back I can actually say, Susan, you really ought to be proud of yourself.

You see the greatest Teacher that we have is not Education, is not text book theories, no ideologies, not philosophies, but simply “Life experiences” and the pain associated with such.  Along with life experiences, pain is our greatest Teacher, for in this we are confronted with our weaknesses, confronted with our strengths, with our boundaries, with what we will accept and what we won’t and we are too faced with our vulnerabilities, we are stripped away of all ego facets of our soul and character and then once the unveiling takes place, we are confronted with a fresh new childlike new beginning on which to transmute all of the learning that has been gleaned from the whole journey;

I am proud to say that I am now much more accepting, comfortable with loss and transformation than I have ever been, even allowing myself to visit the emotions associated with the changes that take place.  Today I was given some feedback on my Group that I run on Facebook, and to me it was one of my most powerful messages that I have received, for believe me in the moments that I have doubted myself, in that journey of allowing myself to be defined by what I felt was a rejection of me, and a rejection of me not being good enough, I received affirmation and confirmation that the whole ethos of my Group Spiritual Reflections & Thoughts.  The Journey that it is successful and it does make a difference, and believe you me in the moments when I doubted myself, my souls call and who I was, who I am, I nearly called the whole lot in.  I tried a few times, but was told by Facebook that the page was of value to its followers and they would not let me close it, this coupled with today’s message has indicated to me that I am a powerful, strong woman who has been to hell and back and has risen.  As in the voice of Maya Angelou, I share a symbolism of who I can identify with,

Still I Rise

Maya Angelou1928 – 2014

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I’ll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don’t you take it awful hard
‘Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines
Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I’ve got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame
I rise
Up from a past that’s rooted in pain
I rise
I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.

From And Still I Rise by Maya Angelou. Copyright © 1978 by Maya Angelou. Reprinted by permission of Random House, Inc.

My spirit got broken, but not my essence, that can never be taken away for it sits in the well of my soul and comes to my aid in real times of need.

 

“And Still I Rise” and in doing so I have learnt so much about me, and what I am capable of.  Thank you for the lessons, that have enable to me to view them in the mirror of

reflection. photo-1438762398043-ac196c2fa1e7

 

Susan Lawrence

Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching.

The energy of the “2”

Good Morning, Happy Summer Solstice,

The sun is shining, beaming and I feel that for many of us, its presence will lift up our energy.  The elements can do that can’t they!

Well today’s energy in terms of the date is a fabulous “2” in its duality, it denotes a sense of togetherness, working together, feminine in its principled energy, the letters B.K.T mean something, in its element its Yin.  The colours associated which are good for today are Orange, Salmon, Peach, Gold.

The stone associated is Moonstone.  The Tarot Card related is the High Priestess, oh my your intuition is going to feel high, high today, trust it, it has something to tell you.

I share with you today’s live video relating which has been shared on my facebook business page, Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching

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Have a blessed and beautiful start of the Summer Solstice.

In love & Light Susan xxinstaquote-21-06-2018-10-25-55 (1)photo-1495653797063-114787b77b23

Today’s Universe Has Your Back Message – 05/04/2018

What a wonderful message today, this one.

It’s in the theme of trusting your intuition as to when to speak up from a place of Love and not fear, to speak up when you feel ready to do so, especially if there is something that you may not be vocalising.  Sometimes picking our moments to speak up, is a good thing, sometimes there needs to be a bit of a process that goes on as to how you feel about what is going on around you!

I don’t know about you, but I learnt some time ago that as we grow, evolve, mature and learn to focus our energy in positive ways, we begin to discern too as to the battles that we enter, also a positive thing, it saves a great deal of energy being misdirected.

If you have some friction that is going on around you at present trust you inner judgement as to when to speak up and speak your truth, sometimes it is wisest to let the dust settle, let things calm down and then meet it with fresh new energy once the waters become calmer.   In addition trust your inner guidance if you feel a little lost at present, sometimes this happens when there is change or a shift happening and things will usually fall into place.  Trust that!  You will always end up where you need to be.

In love & Light Susan xx

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Today’s Universe Has Your Back Message – 04/04/2018

It’s been a couple of days since posting, coming down feeling crappy with a heavy cold, batteries need recharging, sometimes it is so needed, sometimes we do need to listen to the inner call of our body, soul and our mind, oh yes, one must.

I do hope that you have all had a great Easter filled with family love, joy, peace, rest and a sense of inner reflection and calm.

Today’s guidance is “My Faith Has The Power To Turn Trauma Into Healing,  Conflict Into Growth, and Fear Into Love” oh my, I can so relate to this one today, I truly can.  Ever get those moments where you feel conflicted from past trauma, or one feels triggered? or one feels a ripple of a memory, you see deep seated soul scars are like that, deep, profound, always there, never really going anywhere, but reminding you sometimes of their presence, and you know what its okay, it really is.

So today remind yourself that if you have experienced trauma that your faith, whatever you believe, you have the power to turn your trauma into healing yourself firstly, then you can transfer this into helping others, how magnificently powerful is that?

You can equally turn your conflict into growth and stepping stones to pave the way to a brighter, stronger and confident you, knowing that you have RISEN, like a Phoenix from her/his ashes and turned your fear into LOVE, go on, you so know that you can, you just got to truly believe in yourself, despite your doubts, fears, insecurities and your past experiences for they have afforded your growth in your current now and can pave the way to new skills, new awareness for a brighter and better future, with a new sense of eyes being opened in a different way.

With love & beautiful light Susan xxx20180404_230202 (2).jpg

Today’s Universe Has Your Back Message – 30/3/2018 –

Happy Easter Weekend All,

May it be filled with Love, Joy, Peace and Blessings.

In the usual manner I drew a card for today and the card that came up was as follows:-

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The message is this that any form of Attack, Pain, Fear Judgement are separations from “Self” and these are merely signals and signs that require healing.

Ask yourself where are you holding on to Fear, Pain, Judgement, where are you attacking others? or even yourself?

We all know that inner critic voice that can sometimes give us a hard time if we let it too.  Where are you showing up with these emotions, remembering too that none of them are bad, they just are, but the truth is what you choose to do with these emotions and how you allow them to manifest.

Where do you need to be kinder to yourself? where do you need to be kinder to others? What is it that you need to let go of.  Coincidentally it is a Full Moon tomorrow, Saturday 31st March 2018 and this is a Blue Moon Rising plus a big solar shift which is actually creating a great deal of tension within everyone’s psyche’s, so hang on in there and I am positive that soon there is going to be a shift, plus we are coming out of a Mercury Retrograde at the end of this month, in the meantime, hang onto your hats for a little longer.

Have a great Easter weekend for those who celebrate, walk from a place of Love and if you aren’t feeling quite so, perhaps a little bit of inner reflection may be a good thing.

With love & light Susan xxx

When you are challenged, instead of “Why me”, why not “Try me”

As am sitting here just doing a few things I drew a card from the Deck by James Van Praagh, Messages From The Guides, Transformation Deck, what came up was “Accept Your Struggles As Lessons”, it got me thinking of the theme when life is challenging you, instead of saying Why me” why not say Try me?

For it is the very theme of our challenges that we are forced out of our comfort zone to grow, can you imagine if this did not happen? we would lead a very staid, consistent and somewhat uneventful life wouldn’t we?

A particular mind-set that may be useful is thinking about our challenges on a spiritual level and that we all have chosen our struggles to help our soul evolve and grow, to force us to grow out of our comfort zones, afford new perspectives, new growth and new found wisdom and knowledge, this keeps things fresh, alive, interesting and varied, at the time of going through struggles it can sometimes be extremely hard to see the wood for the trees, or at least a ray of sunshine among the darkest of clouds, but eventually we do, eventually a change takes place and we can then reflect and look back and truly begin to understand why? or what it was all about, it can take some time though.

It is important to reflect on the meaning behind each struggle for in doing so one can get a glimpse of what the lesson was all about. How you choose to handle each struggle does give you an insight into your coping mechanisms, strategies, mind-set and the experiences that you come away with.  Also from a spiritual perspective your learning you can take with you ready for your next dimension of spirit.   In the event that you have chosen to ignore the message and view it from a negative mind-set then you can bet your bottom dollar that the very same experience will be presented before your soul again, to ensure that the learning that is needed for your souls evolution is learnt, so do tap into your intuitive 6th sensory perception for there will be a great deal of clues there.

A reminder, A No Is Not A Rejection, but simply put, A Cosmic Redirection, and for every lesson there is always a gem and a pearl that can be turned into a blessing.

You are not your circumstances, nor your experiences your wisdom, truth and light are a product of such.

Keep shining, its your birth right.

In love & Light, Susan xxinstaquote-_temp (12).png

 

Turning Loss into a learning experience.

As I sat quietly this morning, baking and listening to my usual beautiful Calm Zen Radio, I sat with my deck of cards and asked for today’s guidance.  The card that came up is called “Death Is An Illusion” now for western ways this may sound morbid, touching base with such a subject.  I will always feel that the British western ways of dealing and handling loss, death is to remain in a sense of denial with a stiff upper lip.  But with other cultures they actually embrace death, loss as a passageway.  Someone needs to hear this message today, so I am going to go with its message.

This card talks of death being a physical vessel which exists.  That there is a beginning, middle and an end to every life form, whether this is measured in minutes, days, or decades.  It is the nature of the molecules of this earthly planer to have an end date, this is the natural state, this is something that we all do have a guarantee of, and know of.

The death of the conscious energy (or soul) of the vessel, however is an illusion.  But because it can’t be seen or measured and because there are no instruments to detect it, many humans question the ability of the consciousness to survive the death of the vessel.  Just because the limitations of the brain aren’t able to explain the intricate dance between the physical dimension and the spiritual dimensions does not negate its existence.

Spiritual form uses “Death” as a tool, and it then manifests itself in the emotional expression as grief.  This card has been drawn because there may be a need to let go and have some assistance with feelings of loss.  Everything comes to its natural end.  Humans, Animals die, relationships and careers end, but the courageous, strong and full of wisdom are those that are able to transcend any pain of loss into a positive and draw reference from what once was in that moment of time.  Grief is a very real emotion and needs to be felt, acknowledged, understood and validated for its very presence and essence, I liken it to the journey of at times grief being so desperately painful in that moment of mourning the loss of what once was, what one may have hoped for, for what might have been, for all the hopes, desires, expectations, dreams and emotions to no longer having it in a very real sense.  When we allow ourselves to truly touch base with the emotions of loss, mourning and letting go and then transcending all of those difficult emotions to a positive that is when we have allowed our soul to truly rise in the power of its truth, almost like the process and journey of the Phoenix rising from its ashes, there is so much learning when we allow ourselves to process and flow through the whole experience and come out of the other side. Know one said it is easy, going to be easy, or is easy, it is just a passageway to reach the full potential of the other side, taking the journey, the learning of letting go of any attachments that exist.

Helping others in times of grief is one of the most important lessens that we can give to humanity, there is something really soul deep when we are in pain and still having the capacity to rise up and support others, that is compassion at its highest form, grief is one of the most important events in a persons lifetime that the soul can experience.

You see spirit knows that the bonds of Love never truly die and that the souls who are no longer existing in a physical sense are more alive and with you that you may have thought possible whilst you reside in this dimension of Earth, it is your conscious mind that has the difficulty in accepting this fact.  The “Reunion” with your Spirit family is also an illusion because in truth you have never been separated, no amount of time, place nor distance will ever be able to discount the memories, the love, the joy, the feelings that existed when you were both together on this earth plane, and nothing will ever be able to change that.

Grief is a passageway and a gateway to truly learn the journey and the truth that separation is in the mind, and that in your soul the love still exists and always will.

If at any time your grief feels to much too overwhelming or perhaps it has taken you to a place where you are not able to move forward because you have become stuck in the emotions, feelings, thoughts and memories, do seek some professional counselling to support you to get through this, it is not a weakness but a beautiful strength to seek and ask for help when you soul truly needs it.

Remember you are always loved by who you have lost, or at least in your lifetime you were and that never changes.

In love and beautiful light.  Susan xxxxx

Deck Messages from the guides James Van Praagh.  I happen to think are truly powerful, beautiful and speak an abundance of spiritual truth, words written today are a combination of guidance and my own. 20180310_135728.jpg

 

Release Toxic Relationships – 03/03/2018

Happy Saturday,

Today I write with regards to what would be beneficial for your soul growth, as I sat quietly I asked for a card to be drawn as a message for greater soul growth and the potential to reach soul growth in a positive way.

The card that came up was Release Toxic Relationships, the deck that I use are by James Van Praagh, so I cannot take full ownership but I can relay the message that has come up.

The key indicators of this card are that in order for you soul to thrive, it needs to be in an environment of love and harmony, any type of conflict, imbalance or discordance only creates difficulty for your soul to thrive.  Often times souls who are sensitive, HSP’s (Highly Sensitive Persons) Lightworkers, those with a psychic or spiritual inclination will attract others who may be drawn to their light and can siphon of your energy if you are not careful, leaving you depleted and lacking energy.  On this basis, it is extremely important that you protect your energy and protect yourself.  For those who are natural “helpers” the first inclination will be naturally gravitate to those whom gravitate towards you to help, but in doing so, at times may not be conducive for their soul growth, know when to step back and when to help, at least this is what I have learnt, do place those boundaries, let your intuition guide you as to when to help and when to step back.   Sometimes too a soul may be brought to you too, to establish just how much you may have grown in the art and discernment of saying no and that you have the strength to actually release them for their greater good.

Toxic relationships come in many shapes and many forms, some of the key aspects of wisdom and experience are an understanding of which, learn to discern whom is good for your soul growth and whom isn’t, now this may not happen straight away, it can happen too when there is growth within existing relationships, just like seasons, time and place things have the capacity to naturally fall away organically when growth has taken place and renewal, rebirth needs to take place, it is not wrong, it is not right, it just IS, there need not be bitterness, discord with this process just an inner understanding that a journey has come to its natural end.  As you emerge anew you may need to re-organize, re-structure and shuffle yourself and vice versa as this change takes place.  This card has come up at a time of new seeding which is Spring and also just after the last Full Moon 2 days ago which was in the Astrological sign of Virgo, one of the key attributes of a Full Moon phase is to release what is outworn, what no longer serves your soul growth and RELEASE.

Do not allow your kindness, empathy and compassion to allow others to mistreat you or disrespect your soul growth, remembering too that it is equally important for the other party to be afforded this too so they too can GROW, it is a two way mirror which reflects individually for each who play a part.

When something comes to an end, send it love, give it love, say thank you for the lessons, blessings, the gifts, all of what that journey may have encompassed, and thank you for allowing me the space to grow in that chapter, say to yourself I AM READY, I AM READY, for a new chapter and I feel full of wisdom, love, knowledge from all of the teachings that I have had to let go of before.

Stay blessed, be blessed and always come from a place of LOVE.

Cards by James Van Praagh, written by Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching

In love & Light Susan xxxinstaquote-_temp (11).png

Like Attracts Like

Hi, I asked for a card today to send out Universally and the card that came up is Like Attracts Like, interesting concept, some may think what does that mean, well in essence we get what we focus on, so if we focus on fear, anger, hate, love, disappointment, joy, negativity then we will get those things, this deck by James Van Praagh, Messages From The Guides, Transformation Deck I felt drawn too for spiritual work of sharing positive empowering messages.

In essence this card speaks of the following key points objectively:-

  • What you focus on give your energy too this is what will manifest
  • You are the creator of your own life
  • A deflection away from compassion and truth via distractions from day to day life
  • What you desire you must create
  • Not giving into fear and anxiety
  • Making a conscious effort to turn your fear based thoughts to that of compassion, forgiveness and understanding, mercy, tolerance and service.
  • Know one is exempt from this universal law
  •  Turn negative energy, thoughts and actions into a positive

This takes awareness and conscious thought and action, it does not happen overnight and one has to re-train their mind.  I also asked for another card from another deck I have and this one is from the Universe Has Your Back deck by Gabrielle Bernstein and ironically the card drawn fits in perfectly with the other, so today’s message and positive focus is watch your thoughts and your actions, if you are fear based then this is what you will create, let go, let love, compassion and understanding be your inner guide.  It does not mean you condone what does not feel right it just means that you channel your thoughts and responses around it.

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Elliptical Galaxy – 4 of Pentacles

Today I thought I would do something a little different, I have a new deck of Tarot cards called the Quantum Tarot – by Kay Stopforth and Chris Butler, so I thought I would draw reference to today’s message and see what the Universal message is.

I drew the 4 of Pentacles, which can also be referred to as the 4 of Coins, the summary is as follows for the day.

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Elliptical galaxies are very old and contain lots of dying stars.  No new stars are being created as most of the necessary fuel has been used up and things are slowly grinding to a halt.  The 4 of Pentacles manifests this winding-down of energy as a stubborn holding-on to the status quo.  The fixed energy of the four becomes a little too fixed in the earthly suit of the Pentacles, (related to the element of Earth).

A refusal to move forward and embrace change is characteristic of this card, with the resulting fear of scarcity and a sense of stagnation.

Key principles of today’s message

  • Where are you refusing to change?
  • Where are you stuck?
  • What is holding you back?
  • Where is your sense of lack?
  • Where are you sabotaging your growth?

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In love & light, Susan xx

Susan Lawrence Soul Coaching